I’m not going to lie. I’ve been binging. I have all the excuses in the world: tired, overworked, whiny kids, etc. You name it, I have an excuse. The problem is that I am the one that lives with the consequences. My life, my body, my choice. I am the one that is beating myself up. I am the one that is bloated and sore from eating too much sugar. I am the one that is gaining the weight back. I have all the tools for good health, and I choose to sabotage my efforts. Why? Because that is what I have always done.

The problem is that now, I have no choice.

I have been living with chronic pneumonia for two and a half years. I have been on and off antibiotics which has left me with a weak immune system, a toxic liver and a sensitive gut.

When I was living sugar free and wheat free I felt better. My energy was back, and I was feeling like myself again. When I reached my goal weight I started eating sugar and eating wheat (more like gorging) and my symptoms returned.

Yesterday I went to see a naturopathic doctor. I realized after talking with her, that I knew what I had to do to get better (she actually told me). I needed to cut out some food and add in some good bacteria. So… for the next three weeks there will be no sugar, no wheat and no dairy. I will be taking high doses of probiotics to get my gut back on track. I am scared because I am not good with rules. I think they are made to be broken. But I need to do this for my health.

It is no longer about weight. It is about health.

My life, my body, my choice. If I want to get better, I should start following the rules.