A caterpillar is born with the potential to become a butterfly. The caterpillar must grow and eat and when the time comes will form a coccoon and turn into a butterfly. Is the caterpillar less worthy then the butterfly? It is limited by its inability to fly but the butterfly could not exist without the caterpillar… and vice versa. They both exist in the same body, have the same soul, yet their journeys will be completely different, yet the same, because they are one. The caterpillar will eat, and grow… and the butterfly will travel to far away places and see things that the caterpillar could only imagine. But he won’t have to imagine it, because the caterpillar is the butterfly.

When I started this blog, I wanted to find balance with food and exercise… but it has changed to being much more. Through the years that I have written the blog I have gone through many changes both inside and out. I have learned more about myself in the last 3 years then my whole life combined before that… 30 something years.

I am in metamorphosis.

There are times in your life when you are open to enormous change. Usually after a big life event… a birth, a death, an event so significant it changes how you see the world. You are ready to see the world with different eyes, a different perspective. Things are different. You let some light in that you never saw before. You look at yourself in the mirror and see someone different. You decide that you can no longer accept being a caterpillar. Something has changed inside you so profound you will never see the world the same way.

There is something so beautiful and yet so scary about this change. You realize your true potential and start living to support your dreams. You stop trying to be the person you thought you should be, or that you thought people wanted you to be. You start being you… With all the passion and fear and imperfections that go with it. You start to believe that you can be yourself no matter how ugly you may have thought she was at one time in your life.

You learn that you are your greatest ally, supporter and you are solely responsible for making real change in your life. You start to grow wings, and the potential for flight becomes greater with each passing day in your cocoon.

But there are some external factors that can treaten your cocoon. You can’t control the weather or factors around you and hopefully the walls you’ve built are strong enough to get through them.  If the weather is too harsh, or you get hurt along the way, you need to know that you can rebuild.

Whatever life throws at you will teach you what you need to know to make your coccoon stronger.

When I started this blog it was about food and exercise but I have come to realize that its about my life. I wanted balance inside my head. I wanted to end the self doubt, the fear and grow to become a butterfly.

So I ask you again: Is the caterpillar less worthy then the butterfly?

Absolutely not, but it is only a stage that one has to go through to become a butterfly. A caterpillar isn’t less worthy, but the butterfly is more complete because it’s metamorphosis is complete… and it can fly.

And I want to fly.

So this is my time. In my coccoon. It is beautiful, glorious and scary.. and I am enjoying and fearing every moment of the journey.