Some of my greatest life moments have come from fear. Doing something that I was afraid of. Sometimes it took years of being afraid before I took the leap. I wasn’t prepared. Then the moment came when the pain of not pushing through became greater then the pleasure of keeping with the status quo/the safe zone and jumped. I never regret those times I decided to take the leap. Like jumping off a cliff (which I have done) or out of a plane (which I haven’t done) or flying off a trapeze… that time in the air is so scary… yet so exhilarating. The adreneline. The rush.
In life I have taken leaps that have made me feel so vunerable, so unsure, so unsafe in the moment. Some have lead me to great things, others have left me with a broken heart or a broken ego. I do not regret any of them.
In this time of my life I haven’t felt so vunerable. I have let go of everything safe and have decided to follow a path that is unknown. Breaking a trail for myself, and by myself has been the greatest challenge of my life yet. Learning to trust myself. Learning to depend on myself. Not looking outside of myself for guidance and acceptance.
This is a beautiful time in my life where I learn to trust someone who I have always doubted. Me. As I learn to trust myself I have become bolder with each day. Taking leaps and loving every minute of it.
Fear and vunerability are the keys to happiness. Going to the unsafe place where you might get hurt, where you might fail is the path to true bliss. Because you are taking chances. Because you are trusting that you will land safely.
“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most vulnerable. Only when we are brave enough to explore the darkness will we discover the infinite power of our light.” -Brene Brown
I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. I just know that I want to live my life to the fullest. I will not settle out of fear. I will hold and work hard for what I believe in. Smile through the fear. Close my eyes and jump.
What’s the worse that could happen?