I trust myself and my future.

This is my sankalpa. This is what i say to myself when things get tough. When I lose my way, when I start to doubt.  I have struggled my whole life with self-doubt. I have always needed someone to validate my every move. As I “grow up” I have realized that my insticts were right all along. That I should have believed and listened to my gut.

For a while now I have been working on making big changes. I have found inner peace and know how to shut my inner bully up. The problem is that old habits are hard to break. Making real change takes a lot of time and effort… and mindless distractions are everywhere these days. You would know if you were my friend on facebook… Oy!

I know how I want to live my life. I have written out both personal and family mission statements to guide me and to keep me on track. But there is still a gap between who I am and who I want to be. Old habits die hard. Life gets busy. Stress happens. Family vacations… and I revert back to my old ways.

Funny thing is that when I am sublimely happy, which I have been most days… I also revert back to my old ways. Let the good times roll!!!!

I trust myself and my future.

Whether happy or sad, busy or bored, I need to keep telling myself that and working towards my goals. It will take discipline and effort on my part but I know that it will be worth it in the end. Didn’t someone once say “Discipline brings you closer to the things you love”?

I know that my bad habits make me sick. My training suffers. I need to clean up my act and remember how good I feel when I live a clean life. And live as an example for my children who are watching my every move.

I have a lot of work to do. Things to do, goals to accomplish. Life has just begun.

Bring it on.